Sunday, March 27, 2011

The Turning Point

Have you ever…

… Felt stifled by what’s going around you?

… Ever had the feeling that everything is going wrong from day one?

Somehow you always tend to get hints but you never acknowledge them. You just turn a blind eye towards it and then all of a sudden it’s just there – magnified – for you to see and you just can’t seem to ignore it anymore. What do you do then? You try to rectify it of course. You tell openly that “Ok! Something is wrong here! And I need to do something about it.” Sometimes by addressing the problem openly, it tends to get solved. But other times, the problem just refuses to die its death. You fight hard to face it, make the problem go away, maybe even plead a little for it not to show its ugly head again. What if the problem is too stubborn and strong-headed that it just refuses to budge? That’s when reality hits you on the face. And you just stare back at life - not surprised, not shocked, but with a little compassion somewhere for the things that had gone far beyond your control. You weep a little thinking how things could have been - how things SHOULD have been. But if the problem is too adamant, what can you do other than let your destiny take its own course.

Turning points happen when they are meant to happen and most often than not -- they happen for the good...

Thursday, March 24, 2011

I'm a Woman...

I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an' pretend
'cause I've heard it all before
And I've been down there on the floor
No one's ever gonna keep me down again....

You can bend but never break me
'cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul!

Oh yes I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to I can face anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman.

- Helen Reddy

Sunday, March 13, 2011

It Feels Like Home Sweet Home Again....

I have been in Dubai for a while now, but somehow my mind and heart is still at that remote place in Kerala wherein lies my home. The place I used to visit only during vacation time when I was schooling in Bahrain. The place I stayed when I started attending a nearby college and after dad's retirement. A place where I can be me -- and no one has any complaints about it. The place where I am carefree and where I am subjected to some pure, unconditional love. The place I know that will welcome me with open arms even if the entire world rejects me...

My sister was sick with Pneumonia and was put up in ICU one week back or so. I had to handle her kids, and even if I was just learning, I loved every single moment of taking care of my 1 year old nephew. Just his smile was enough to make me forget all my worries. It's a wonder how we smile at the silliest of things when we are small, but then later on forget to smile even at the funniest of situations. Sometimes with a kid, you end up feeling like a kid yourself and there have been moments when I wished I could pack up little Yadhu and take him back to my place. Apart from that, I guess I was not able to carry out all what a mother can do for her child -- and I wasn't surprised when my sister started craving for our parent's TLC. Our mom and dad rushed to her side the moment they heard she wanted them. Nothing like unconditional love right? I felt sad my sister was sick but my happiness knew no bounds when I heard my parents were coming. A mixed bag of emotions, you can say.

It has been a rollercoaster ride this month around in terms of emotions. But the silver lining in the tunnel is that my parents are around to look at my sister and I, smile and say "Everything will be okay soon!" whenever we are stressed out. Having my parents around makes me feel carefree again in a way. Having them around makes me feel protected, wanted and loved. With them around, it somehow feels like home sweet home again...

P.S - On a good note, my blog post - How I Met The Nair Boy - got published in one of the Chicken Soup for the Soul Series. Get your hands on "Chicken Soup for the Indian Bride's Soul" today! :)