There are phases in your life which make you wonder if you would ever be able to get past through unharmed...
I remember sending frantic messages to my sister last year telling her desperately why I thought I wasn't marriage material. I couldn't find peace anywhere from anyone and I thought the best place to find the comfort I was looking for could only come from me! I stayed aloof for a pretty long time because I didn't want to hurt anyone and most importantly I didn't want to end up hurting myself. Funny how things turned around this year...
Now, at least I am not as hopeless as I used to be. Marriage doesn't scare me anymore. I am not even scared how it would turn out after marriage (due to happen later this year) coz I believe I have met the most patient and understanding man ever possible. I have now realised that soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you.
I have no idea if my platinum day of love had come and gone without me knowing about it but I can't stop gushing....
... when he calls up after having a fight and throws dialogues like these :
R : Busy ?
Me : Uh huh.. what happened now ?
R : Wanted to hear your stupid voice...
Me (Irritated) : Huh ?
R : Kidding! Just called to say that I accept you with all your mood swings, tantrums and frustrations. Love you...
... when he mingles with my family as if they are his own.
... when he buys popcorn, eats more than half of it himself and then turns to me apologetically saying 'Oops! I was hungry'.
... when he throws tantrums and goes kiddish with a 'I won't talk to you again! Nobody cares for me!' but calls me back after an hour or two with a 'So wassup?'
... when he gushes and goes all wide eyed, happy and cheerful when he sees me making me feel as if I am the most beautiful person in this world.
I feel if R and I had met somewhere outside this whole arranged prospective bride/groom meeting, we would have still fallen in love and got married eventually. I don't think anybody else could have handled the volatile me in a better way nor would he have been able to feel so vehemently about anyone else.
Who said Pyaar is Impossible in an arranged marriage?
It has been a blessed month so far -
Feb 7th - My engagement day
Feb 14th - Got my first engagement gift from R - a White Gold ring. I decided to break the ice then and gave him a tight hug. He was quite surprised by this (who said men had to take the first step?) but it did leave him with a huge grin!
Feb 16th - My Nephew was born - Yadharth! Babies are such sweethearts. You can't help falling for them the moment they are born -- those cute expressions, smiles, the gurgles and Yadharth to top it all mistakes my nose for his feeding bottle!
I am in Dubai now enjoying with my sister, family and R! The later part of this month would see me flying off to the place I was born and brought up - Bahrain - for a quick visit. Won't be around for few weeks. Till then, have a more blessed month than me! :)