January is always eventful for me some way or the other. This month had its ups and downs -- was really happy coz of family in the beginning but let down by friends later on. As usual, I am blessed with four angels to bring me up whenever I am downright low - Sum, San, Mads, and a long lost friend who came back just on time, Anu Susan.
I have lost almost 4 friends this month coz of my volatile temper. A temper which I usually keep hidden coz if unleashed it can be as bad as it can get. A temper which I know can make me lose friends as fast as I befriend them.
In a fight, each party will have a different story to tell and prove that they are more right. More often than not, both sides are to be equally blamed and hence I won't revert to a post that says why I am right and the others are wrong. The funny part is that all the people I had fought with are people who I know only through the Internet. Does this mean that we are less tolerable towards people we hardly know? It's easy to get close to such people, but then it doesn't take much to get pissed off at them either.
I got a shower of advices the following day -
'Someone throws you a smile and you befriend them. Why do you befriend people so quickly? You've always been like this and you land up with people who you can't really handle and they end up hurting you.'
'Making friends is fun but all won't care for you as much... so do keep the distance.'
'Don't make friendship with strangers. People you meet virtually don't know how you are and can misunderstand you faster.'
'Why do you trust people so quickly and expect them to understand everything and anything you tell them?'
'Some 'friends' are like that - they stay with you only during your good days.'
Definitely some points for me to ponder on...
On a brighter note, being with family (relatives included) is getting more and more enjoyable. I developed a bond with my cousin brothers which was missing earlier. Now I don't think twice before entering their rooms and waking them up from their beauty sleep. No longer the uncomfy silences when we sit together for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I was closer to the girls in the family, but now it's the same with the boys too. This means that I am no longer considered as the outsider -- the NRI -- of the family. That tag has been thrown into the dust bin and I am just their cute little cousin sister now - which feels great!
Other than that, I met up with relatives from Australia after a long time. The best part was convincing this 12 year old that I was actually 25!
'But you look 18!', she said.
Now what more does a girl need to make her day? ;)
To end this with an even more good note, I might have some news for you guys soon. So stay tuned!