It always feels terrible to get out of one's comfort zone. But as everyone knows, you can't achieve anything unless you get out of it. Change of phases always bring me a great discomfort. Eventually, I do end up liking them.
When I was in school, I was damn sure I will never like college. First of all, I had to go to Kerala and talk to my classmates in Malayalam. It's not that I don't know the language, but if you use some high funda words I will look as if I was just given a time bomb. I would never get to interact with small, cute 6-7 year olds like in school, who were just so carefree, enthusiastic and in love with life. I would never get to eat chicken mayo sandwich from ISB canteen. And on top of that, I had to wear a sad looking churidhar (my uniform) which didn't suit me at all.
If I sound like an arrogant NRI know-it-all, well... yes, that was me in the beginning. That lasted until I came to know... the others knew much more than me :P I slowly started liking the place. I started liking the milkshakes (only thing worth having from college canteen). By the end of my fourth year, I was completely in love with it.
After my fourth year, I was damn sure I wouldn't like going to work. Too much responsibilities. Too much headache. And you can't sleep during work hours. When I started to work... it didn't turn out so bad. The money earning part I just loveeeee :D The financial independence is just awesome.
Now its almost time for my next transition and I feel the same discomfort. Maybe all this uneasiness is for the good, as proved in the past. Though I think this transition phase is a lil harder than the other ones I went through because there is a lot more pressure, a lot more of disappointments.. and you are just looking desperately for that lil iota of hope and happiness.
Sometimes, I just wish I could go back to my childhood days and start things all over again...
But then...this is what life is all about.