Thursday, December 08, 2005

Sticky Glue

No, I am not going to talk about the advantages and disadvantages of the usage of glue, but actually about people who are like sticky glue. There is nothing wrong with that. Some people can adjust to such people but not me. I am a person who needs a lot of space. Blame it on the abundance of it when I was in Bahrain. Now that I am in Kerala, I still do get my space but the problem is when I go to my mother's house. Don't get me wrong, I love all the noise. But the sudden lack of privacy is a bit too much to handle for me. When you sleep , there are people around you doing various things - talking, laughing, running around, and just making noise. I see my cousins sleeping soundly amidst such commotion. The funny thing is they cant rest in peace, when their surroundings are quiet !

I like all the fun and noise once in a while. Not on an everyday basis. But my cousins ( all part of a joint family ) cant spend a day without it. How can people survive without dedicating a small fraction of their day to themselves? I feel its very important to do so, just to get to know yourself better, know what you want from life.

Anyway, getting back to the sticky glue part, I hate anything clinging on to me, even if its a sticky glue ! I never let the glue get on my hands even by accident when I am using it. It makes me feel icky. Same goes with people. I do not like the idea of getting way too close to people such that they end up clinging on to me and expect me to do everything with them. I know a few friends who are like that. They sit only with each other and no one else, they talk only to each other and no one else, they eat, they study..... Why do people restrict themselves and their friendship to just a few people ? Whenever anyone tries to enter into such a relationship with me, I try to stay away for a while. Maybe because of the fear that one day even I might get entirely dependent on them. Maybe because of the fear that they might leave me forever one day...