Sunday, November 27, 2005

Anger Control

I have been getting very angry a lot nowadays. Making me feel stressed out and tired. Even the slightest of things make me feel uncomfortably angry. What makes me angry ? Even, I dont know. The incidents which make me angry now wont affect me much later on. It started with the trip to Kodai when I got angry at one of my uncles.

The place that we stayed in Kodai did not include food providing facilities. So we had to get food from outside. After horse-riding, he insisted that we kids ( yeah, kids) have dinner at 6.30! Whoever feels hungry at 6.30 ?!? Not me. Then he said the adults will have their dinner packed up, which will be eaten later on at the place we stay. I got so angry.. I asked him if he would get me dinner if I feel hungry at 10.00 pm. He just smiled and gave some lame excuse. The food getting cold so it is better if we kids eat food at the hotel where the food will be warm and that they are helpless for some reason due to which they are going to bring their food to the hotel. But the adults got the people in the hotel to warm up the food.. I wonder why my mom did not slap me then and there itself. She hates it when I raise my voice at anyone in the family. Lucky day, I guess..

From then on I have been getting angry for the silliest of reasons. I think the weather of Kodai affected my brain *gulp*.. Since I did not have problems when I was a teenager. I think I am showing symptoms of the normal 'teenage behaviour' now.. Some people just grow up late, I guess..

Thursday, November 17, 2005

On a personal note...

I have been feeling restless lately... When I sit, I want to stand and run around.. When I stand, I want to sit down again... Yeah, call me mad if you want. But whenever I feel a bit weird, I listen to music. The effect it has on me is amazing. The thing is, I dont listen to music which go according to what I feel at that moment. When I am sad, I listen to really fast, racey music whereas whenever I am happy I like listening to soft, romantic tunes.

Anyway, I was the princess of the house at my mom's sister's house when I visited her on saturday. She made me eat and eat... 'eat eat, my child, how thin you are' (a line from a 10th standard poem.. my favourite one ). I like prawns and she had happened to cook prawns that day... she said something like how we are related by the heart, thats why she cooked prawns the day I came though she was not aware I am fond of it. Made me laugh, but it was extremely cute and thoughtful....

Monday, November 14, 2005

News update

Just posting about the events which I feel strongly about, that are being splashed everywhere in newspapers :

- Khushboo's arrest for discussing about pre-marital sex. She said pre-marital sex is no big deal which caused a tamil women's association to press charges against her and hence the arrest. Its so absurd. She was just giving her opinion about it . There's nothing wrong in that. We Indians are getting hyper for the smallest things including the smoking scenes in films. If the talk and films influence the youngsters, then I must say we have the most stupid population of youngsters from the world. A youngster is not only influenced by what his/her favourite people on tv do. He/she is also influenced by the people in his vicinity. Not all youngsters are die hard fans of movies, but they still end up smoking. So if a ban has to be placed it should be placed on smoking in open areas. Better still, smoking should not be allowed anywhere... Getting back to Khusboo's case, the police should arrest the people who are into pre-marital sex rather than arresting people who comment about it...

Maybe our Indian community expects too much from stars. Khusboo's 'temple' was broken down once people learned she got married to a man who already had a wife. And they would have never guessed a famous personality to say all these things. Moreover, she had a second marriage.. that makes her even more 'sinful'.

- The Volcker case has been going on for some time. It was kind of shocking to know that Natwar Singh and the Indian congress party are said to be involved in the oil-for-food programme and their supposed link ups and friendship with saddam. Natwar singh is saying with full confidence that he has nothing to do with anything in the case. But Volcker has stated otherwise in his report. Whats the outcome of this case, only time can tell ... till then stay entertained with this daily soap opera on ur local news channel ..

-The next one which is even more exciting is the return of abu salem to India with his girlfriend ( now he has claimed Monica Bedi is his second wife ). The forged passports, the underground links.. Monica Bedi sure has proved if she cant provide entertainment on-screen, she can do 'very-well-thank-you' off-screen.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Will you marry me ?!

Marriage. The very word ignites a feeling of responsibility. A sense of maturity. In India, for men this ‘responsibility’ can be undertaken at the age of 21 or 21+ . For women, at the age of 18 and thereafter. They are then considered mature enough to deal with the traditional institution of marriage. I think it’s a bag of hogwash. How can a girl of 18 age be responsible enough when she is only getting to know life. Yes, a girl is physically mature enough, but mentally ? Leaves a lot to be desired...

At my household, the moment a girl enters the tender age of 18, the talk of marriage arises. The talk of saving enough jewellery NOW, so that your girl has enough to wear on her wedding LATER is a very common thing. But I think its more resident in Keralite Hindu families. I have been hearing about my marriage plans since I turned 18. Nothing pisses me off more, than the idea of my future marriage. Come to think of it, I am not even ready to take good care of myself. I am not yet aware what life means and there is so much to explore. Wont marriage chain me up ? Reduce whatever little freedom I am having right now to grow ?

PS : I would like to deviate from the topic and to my million *ahem* viewers who are interested in new fantabulous sites, heres one -

This site is created by my dear friend Anu and its fantabulous because her first post is dedicated to me where she insists I am a bad girl and since I am the one who keeps listening to all her rubbish.

EXTRA NOTE FOR ANU : Dont worry Anu, no one will visit your site ( in case you dont want anyone to ) coz they will have to SEE this post first which I doubt considering my million viewers will be too busy to come here :p And if you do want people to visit your site, then... hmmm... DONT WORRY.. tera number bhi aayega :)

Thursday, November 03, 2005

This is the new Merc-Benz McLaren. The new love of my life. This 1750 approx. kilo beauty satisfies the fast-car loving types as well as the luxury-car seeking people. It has enough space such that it is said to accomodate two golf bags with ease in its truck and also has an air conditioner which has ice cold cooling facilities ( my mom would love that part ) . And it does not cost much. Just 435,000 dollars which is approximately equal to 2 crore rupees. Not much at all :(

I would love to get it as a birthday gift ( intended to my million viewers ) .. I am not asking for too much , am I ?

Frankly speaking, I am just in love with the look of the car. Sleek and Sexy! But whoever is going to buy it for me, better buy it fast. There are only 500 of them , and 140 of them are for the Americans alone. Well, considering the cost.. a Merc Benz McLaren might be available anyday to buy..